I debated sharing what happened to me a week ago. Now that things have gotten worse, I feel like I can't keep it a secret any longer. Why wouldn't I share the ups and downs of my life with the most supportive and nonjudgmental group of all? You, my blogging friends, are the best.
I had a miscarriage last Friday. It came as a huge surprise since I didn't know I was pregnant. Want to know what was even more shocking? I was on the pill. Google says the pill is 92-99.7% effective as birth control. Yes, I knew this. However, I thought I would fall into the percentage it actually worked for. It was a traumatic experience to say the least, but I'm moving past it as best I can. I see my doctor on Wednesday for a follow up. As long as everything's ok, I will be moving forward with a more permanent birth control solution. The Hero and I are extremely blessed to have Little Man and Little Bit, but are in total agreement that we don't want any more children.
During the first few days, I suffered through severe cramps and lower back pain. I managed to only miss one day of work just to be laid off on Friday. Yes, you read that right. I was let go from my job on Friday along with some other coworkers. I can't and won't get into the details here. Just know that the reasons for my sudden removal from the office were bogus and without merit. I expected better treatment from my superiors. If they want personal opinions and unfair treatment to get in the way of a great staff, so be it.
I've been wallowing all weekend. I'm allowing myself to feel sad until tomorrow night. Tuesday will be the start of a new chapter in my life. This chapter will be better and brighter than ever before.